Tuesday, 25 March 2014 | 22:18 | 0 commentsHeyyo Bloggers
So today I'll be talking about my school and my fellow friends.There's not much to talk about . It's not tht I hate school . It's just not interesting anymore .
So my best friends found new cliques . I admit it . New friends are awesome but some, tend to forget old friends. It kinda started when the school finally breaks the new when Randall got the most important job. I was proud because he's in the same class as me . Soon , people started to recognise him and suddenly , all the girls go crazy for him . Especially one of my classmates and the juniors. I know . It's not wrong for admiring someone , but to Qurratu and I , the situation is kinda bullshit -.- Randall has been in the school for 3 years , and now you guys have started to notice him? Come on =.= No , I'm not jealous . I have my own guy to be jealous with ~.~
So,when Randall was announced about his new job, my friend , Liz starts to go googly eyes over him . And since then she used me to be close with Randall . At first , I tease her by sticking near Randall , making him seat at her place . But soon after , Liz starts to say that "Randall sent me a kiss emoticon" and I was like "WTF R U TALKING BOUT?!" She and my other friends was shocked how I reacted . I know Randall quite well , I know he wouldn't send such a thing because at that time he had his own relationship problem and he still loves his ex . I told Randall what Liz said and Randall got quite shock. I asked him wht really happen and he said Liz was the one tht sent it.He gave me his FB password and I check . Guess what?Liz was lying ^^ She was the one who sent it. At that moment , I started to repel from my friends .
2014 came and I thought the topic about Randall was over because Liz said she like another person . I'm like okay , whutevaah . And my new year resolution started . My new cliques are awesome and fine but .. 2 to 3 months by and I started to lose interest . No, I dont hate them . I just got bored with them . Everyday they will be talking bout their crushes or their boyfriends *sigh* One will be busy settling with his partner tht wouldnt fucking die even if she said she would .Both of them would not just let go of the topic which pisses me off because I've been in tht situation . This particular guy was the wise on who advises me to let go of my partner years ago , but when he got another relationship , fuck all his advices! He didnt even listen to his own advices when he's in a relationship . Now he and his partner broke up , shit problems cant be settle because the girl was stupid .And I dont recognise him as my friend anymore . His attitude changed and really makes me feel sick+hatred =.= So , I repel to him too .
Other cliques would just be talking bout their crushes which wouldnt end *sigh* I dont know when will the story ends . They keep stalking their crushes . I would just be there and laugh or even sarcast them . One of them actually got her crush . I was happy for her . I was happy for everyone . Eventhough they would be screaming here and there which to me is unnecessarry . It just looks like ... I donnt even know the word. Even so , inside , it's just boring . It's like a love drama . The same scenes recaps in every drama and you'll be like "Ha!I knew this guy would be like this/the wife would cheat.I knew it!" . It's just an example but you get what I mean . It's just so cliche . So ,I repel to everyone . My friends would be grouping at one place , and I will be at my place , doing my homework,sleep or talk to my chinese friends. They'll come to me when they need help or in trouble . I even stop talking about my problems to them now .Yes,it is a burden and yes it's lonely . But I'm getting used to it . I'm getting used to everything now. I realised now tht my friends will leave me someday and friendship arent forever (Thx Keviin) . So now,when I come to school , I'll just be quiet ,let my friends talk , laugh and I'll just be there smilling .When inside I'm just lonely . Thanks to all my friends for being there for me before ^^ And I understand if u dont need me anymore .If you are my friend , and you are reading this , just act as if u didnt . It's kinda better that way :)
♫♪ Goodbye ♫♪